I found a really awesome learning opportunity and the classes are at night. Too bad bedtime is a power struggle. Partner comes back, I absolutely screamed at him the night before because he keeps outsourcing his issues and never solves anything. He also made some racially charged comments about my upbringing. I'm tired and i don't ask him for anything except bills and food money. I'm responsible for his taxes this year somehow?? Through my tax person and yet he says mean stuff like, "I don't give a fuck about your career". Really? Because my career was a decent 50/50 that I built for myself and I raised your kids 25/8, you dick. You could never do that. So, I'm trying to keep up. Broke down crying several times trying to grasp the negotiation and equation aspects of the class. Partner doesn't do anything. 7 year old wants to build a miniature bassinet and is obviously upset. I'm taking out the trash. I have to do dishes. I want to cry. He's crying about not getting head and I want to bang my head.

I get called on on the Zoom, I go to put my mic om after the chaos and the instructor kicks me out of the group. I sent her 3 paragraphs apologizing for not participating and im so embarrassed for not keeping up. Ugh fuck me. I hate it here. End rant lol