MIL takes over the holidays and kid's birthdays because I lie and say that I don't care. It was my 4th kid's birthday this week. She took them for Thanksgiving and her birthday. She returned them this morning and the kids started fighting over the remote. Partner freaks out and says that they never behave like this at him mom's. Idk why. But this brought up memories of my first child's birth. It didn't go as I had planned and I ended up.debating the doctors about it being an emergency. The doctors sent me home and I had a follow up the next day. The nurse rushed me to L&D because it was an emergency. I felt bad and embarrassed. Partner's family resented me. Partner told me that i was shitty for having a c section. I went into emotional shock and MIL sent partner a string texts telling him that I wasn't being motherly enough. She also told my partner to call in the nurse to talk to me about postpartum depression without my consent. Partner started freaking out and having a tantrum. He picked up my baby and told me that he was going to call CPS on me for essentially not being like his mother. I hid in the hospital bathroom of my room and called my mom. Mom started freaking out and it was a total shitshow. I was so scared. He would have his family come by without telling me. I had a c section and his dumbass dad walked in on me with my gown on after I had a painful bathroom experience. "She looks unhealthy". I stopped participating in family gatherings because I felt so sick. They gave me metrics and expectations. Idk I feel robbed of my motherhood. I'm tired of my partner comparing me to his mom. I'm tired. Trying to pull it together, though. I never got tell my side of story. Lol. They just went on with their lives haha