Last night my daughter had a real heart-to-heart talk to me and in that she told me she sometimes doesn’t love me and will tell her friends she doesn’t. She wasn’t mad when she said this and said she didn’t want to hurt my feelings. She also talked about how their dad plays with them (being her and her brother) more, and how I’m boring (I try to play with them but it isn’t natural to me, and half the time I’m burnt out most days, plus dealing with depression). She said she loves her dad more and how when I’m gone she’ll miss me but when I’m back she wants me gone and sometimes wishes she had a different mommy. This wasn’t said maliciously, she was just trying to get things off her chest. This comes on the heels of me feeling very taken for granted by my husband and me having to go NC (no contact) with my own parents, which has led to bad depression already and feelings of unwanted-ness. Sometimes I wonder if she blames me for us not seeing them anymore. Most of what I do is for her, and I feel just not wanted despite loving her more than anything…