This is so hard, I've never had to break up with someone I loved. The image of the tears streaming down her face, the look of horror in her face thinking "is this really happening?" is making me feel like a monster.

She didn't deserve this. She did everything she could to try and meet my needs, make me happy, but I wasn't able to love her like she wanted. I wasn't able to make her feel safe, I wasn't able to make her feel secure, I wasn't ready for the commitment she was looking for...I tried to be ready...I really did. I just couldn't do it...and now I have to hurt the woman I care most for because I know it's just not right. I can't continue to be with her out of obligation, it's not fair to her. I know I did the right thing.

And I still feel like I did the wrong one.