My sister's birthday would have been tomorrow. She passed away in 2017, on November 27th. I know it might seem ridiculous but it's only just recently that it's started to hit me. I was sad, missed her so much, sure. But only since the 1 year anniversary did it actually start to hit me. She's gone. Until that point, I don't know if I was just ignoring it as much as I could, but I kept hoping it wasn't real, and I just pushed it to the back of my head.

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It's still really hard to talk about it, the hardest part for me is my almost 4 year old son sometimes asks where she is, and I always tell him that she's gone. She loved my son so much, especially since she was never going to be able to have kids after her treatment. It broke her heart every time, but she always spent as much time with him as possible.

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Last year my daughter was born, and we named her after my sister. She knew my wife was pregnant before she passed, but she never got the chance to meet her. I miss her so much every single day. She would have been 34 tomorrow.

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Grief is never easy, it comes and goes in waves. Some days I'm fine, I can remember the happy times without crying. Other times I want to just curl up in my bed and cry because it's just so unfair. I know many of the people here are facing the same possible outcomes. Don't give up hope. I wish with all my heart that new treatments are discovered to help you. I hope that one day GMB or other forms of brain cancer are a thing of the past, and you can point at your scar and laugh, telling the story of how you survived. I hope all of you live your lives to the fullest, full of joy, wonder and never ending positivity. I know it's hard, It's hard for me to, but I know my sister wouldn't want any of us to be sad. She faced her last conscious day with a smile on her face, making jokes and telling all of us that she'll be fine, that she's not going to let it end her. She knew it was coming, we all knew, but she was so damn positive and stubborn that we never gave up hope.

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I kind of went on a rant there, sorry about that. Thanks for reading. I just needed to share.