Hey!

I wasn't sure what to title this post, but I think I roughly captured what my situation is. Beginning with my first intimate experience I've almost entirely just had intense kink dynamics and extreme sexual encounters, with very little vanilla experiences or relationships. Don't get me wrong, I definitely have a natural inclination for those things. But now I find myself feeling a bit insecure and wondering if I can relate to potential partners (whether romantic or otherwise) who don't have those inclinations or experiences. And while almost all of my past relationships have begun and ended well, there were relationships and encounters where the other person was only interested in me as a kink dispenser, my level of experience (or sometimes lack thereof, i.e. "cherry popping"), or because of my willingness to engage in extreme sexual acts. And I guess...I don't really mind that too much? But it does have me feeling a bit insecure at this point, especially as I've gotten older.

Phew, sorry for the blog post there. Here's what I'm hoping to gain with this post: I'm hoping to meet someone I can talk to about these things. If you have a similar background as I do wrt relationships and sex then it would be great to talk about how that has impacted you and your relationships/relationship types over time (if at all), and, if you currently have a purely vanilla relationship currently, how you've managed that transition. If you're completely vanilla or have less interest or experience in kink or sexual experimentation, I'd like to hear your thoughts as a woman from the outside looking in, and what judgements, concerns, or other thoughts come to mind if you were to come across and consider someone with my background.

I'm being a bit vague because I don't know exactly what I want out of my next relationship or what changes I should make, so at this point I could really just use a female friend or acquaintance to talk to about this.

If you read all of this you are a trooper and I hope you have a wonderful day. Hope to hear from you.