Ever since I watched that interview where he talks about parasocial relationships with celebrities, it has kind of, I dunno if 'tainted' is the right word, but a little cloud hangs over my heart whenever I want to interact with the art.

Its just like, I'm acutely aware of the fact that I don't know him. All these feelings I get from his art has this veil between us as human beings, the veil of him being an artist and us being an audience. And it just sucks because his art makes me feel things so deeply. Inside literally saved my life, I was on the verge of succumbing to mental illness when that dropped, and it resonated so deeply with me that I got help. It sounds corny to some people but I don't care. It kept me here.

But. Like. I can never connect with an artist the way they connected with me. And it's just kinda depressing. I'll just listen to the songs and move about my life, trying to be content with the content.

Does anyone else relate or am I being weird and just reinforcing what he was talking about? Lol.