Don't get me wrong, I love Chicago culture. The clubs are more fun than Atlanta. The food is too. Houston will forever be my love, but the city of Chicago is just gorgeous. Nothing compares.

But the white mindedness of the people here is for the birds 😭. I can't stand the amount of pandering to whiteness people here so. Black, Latino, etc everyone here does it (haven't found the Asian community yet, but the signs currently are showing me I may not want to)

What's been especially awful is that I get so much of it from fellow black women. I usually wear my hair in headwraps at work cause I'm a nurse, but I have an event tomorrow and needed to take my twists out before I went into work. It's probably the first time I've work my hair loose in the 8 months I've worked here and the first person who had something today was one of the few other black women that work on my unit. She say, "girl, Why is your hair looking crazy today?" So boldly and in front of everyone that 3 people in the unit stopped what they were doing to turn around and see wtf was going on. 2 of the women (white women) contradicted her and said "I think her hair looks great. You should wear it out more" and the older black woman at my job said "Yes, my daughter wears her hair just like this. It's a style". Just occurred to me that I actually haven't seen either of the other two black nurses ever wear their natural hair and now I see why 🙃. They seem to think it's a no no.

Then later in my shift, on the same day another younger black girl is staring at me because I'm dancing to the music in my headphones. She asks what I'm listening to. I say "Oh, Moneybagg Yo dropped an album". And she says "That's so ghetto" gives me a look and then walks away. I don't even listen to Moneybagg yo like that! He just dropped an album 🥲 so I checked it out. Mind you, this is the 2nd time I've been referred to as "ghetto" in the past couple months??? Y'all I'm baffled. I got called "Oreo" and "White acting" in Atlanta 🥴. Now I'm in Chicago and Im "A ratchet" (according to a Pakistani man) because I wore pink braids for a month 😂.

And if I hear one more black woman slander Kendrick Lamar for "dissing Drake because he's mixed" I'm gonna lose it. What is going on up here?!?!?