I’ve been going through a rough time recently. After competing a lot last year and winning large tournaments, my body started to take a toll and feel weird. I was having issues with a part of my body pretty badly so I went to the doctor couple weeks back and have learned that I might have cancer and they want to take a closer look to make sure it’s not serious. On top of that, my dad has cancer as well.

I stopped showing up to class due to burn out and also because of my health issues and my struggles with training with my health issues. I’m scared that I am going to lose everything. I haven’t shown up to classes or open mays in a while and no one has reached out to me to check on me. I honestly don’t even know what to do. I’m scared and it this is cancer then I don’t know what to do with myself.

I know everyone has lives and all, but I just feel hurt that not one person has checked on me or asked about me. I’ve been training for 6 years and feel I have a good rapport with people at the gym, so it makes me sad no one seemed to have noticed I haven’t shown up in a while.

Anyways I don’t know what to think and feel. I just feel sad and numb. My dad’s pretty much stage four cancer and I’m just finding out I might have cancer as well, and so it’s been a double blow. I guess I’m just disappointed in this community and sad that no one has even bothered to check on me. I’m scared, sad and just so lost right now. Sorry for ranting but just looking for comfort right now I guess. Thank you