I'm 21M, bi, and poly and I have a boyfriend who I love a lot but I desperately want a girlfriend but I can't find one. Why is that? I seem to be a hit with the guys but not with the girls. Is it because I'm autistic, a Marxist-Leninist, bipolar, and a Nietzschean? My Mom won't let me let dates into the house. And will barely let me leave the house for them. And is scared to let me leave to hook up with online dates. She seems to be scared to let her baby leave the nest. Well if she really cared about me then why did she yell and berate me ever since I hit puberty and became too much to handle for her as an autistic young man? I'm just so upset.

Ever since I read “Frankenstein” by Mary Shelley at age 14 I always felt like the monster, as a bi autistic man (even though I was in denial and in the closet at the time and would be until age 16 so I just felt like it connected with my autism). I felt alienated and in search of a female mate (just autistic at first when I was in the closet and later when I learned I was bi I wanted an autistic bi gf) of my own kind to populate the earth with my own kind (bi autistic kids). Too bad I wasn’t created by a mad scientist who I could talk to to create her. Though that didn’t end well in the book.

EDIT: I’ve been told what my Mom is doing is emotional incest. And I agree none of these things disqualify me from finding love. And I don’t just want a women to impregnate. I want women to love. I don’t think women exist for just being bare foot and pregnant. I’m a romantic. I just wish there were more autistic and bi people and I fantasized about bringing them into the world. So I remember reading Frankenstein at fourteen and identifying with how The Monster (who in the book is quite intelligent and able to speak and says some of the most beautiful lines in the book like “Satan had his companions, fellow-devils, to admire and encourage him; but I am solitary and detested”) and his desire to have a mate and populate the earth with his own kind as a kid who never fit in due to my autism and what I would later learn to be was me struggling with my bisexuality. I just think that being cooped up with my Mom, Gran and Brother and only dating men has made me forget how women in the real world work.