I (32 m) feel like I missed out on my peak years and I’m kind of struggling with that idea. I wasn’t in a safe place or mindset to really explore myself when I was younger. Now that I’m older I am ,but I still feel like I missed out. I’m way more of a bottom than a top and I’ve aged. I’m not as young and hot as I used to be and it makes me feel undesirable as a bottom. It gets really bad because I think I’m gender fluid and sometimes I get a lot of body dysphoria around being masculine. I want to feel small and feminine. It makes pursuing the experience I want hard because I feel undesirable because of it.

I don’t mean to say that I think I am an unattractive person, I’m in decent shape and I seem to attract people in my life; women seem to be interested in me anyway. I don’t really know how to deal with these feelings and I don’t know how to get what I want.