Ok firstly... the username i created as a favour for someone so ignore that for now lol..

M42 in uk.. i had some experiences with other boy in school. Hands oral and a rather unexpected mouthful of cum. That was all.. straight relationships all the way through my adult life and honestly never thought about being with a guy until about 6 months ago.

My dilemma is that i have no romantic feelings towards guys. I dont find them attractive and i dont want to date guys.. but for some reason i have this relentless urge to have an experience where i just explore and tease. I wanted it to be a relaxed and easy comfortable 1 off session but i just cannot for the life of me find someone who is on the same page. I also dont even really know if i will enjoy it or not. What i will feel after or if i will want to do it again or not. Its very confusing but i have gotten so close to meets a few times which is fueling the urge even more.