I (32F) am a bisexual woman in a committed relationship with a cis man, but we are open and both have been with other women for short periods of time. Not usually the same woman but there have been times when we have both agreed that a certain woman is attractive.

There are a couple of times when I’ve met a woman who is extremely attractive, like super hot and also has a great vibe, and I’m like into her and really feeling it. But also my insecurities pop up and I wonder if she’s more attractive than me and start to feel jealous too. This happens usually just with women I see when I’m on my own, I don’t usually feel jealousy about the other women my partner likes, and I actually get turned on when he’s talking about other hot women.

It doesn’t happen with most women I find myself crushing on. But it has happened a few times and it always stands out to me.

It’s weird because the only thing that will make me feel better is when I masturbate while thinking about the woman and the situation. It might sound weird honestly it’ll be like the best masturbation ever and gets me off so fast.

So I’m not sure what the deal is. Maybe I have a kink about being envious. Maybe it’s just with women that are super extra attractive and it’s not actually that I’m jealous. Not sure.

Anyone else ever felt this or something similar?