Full disclosure, not the first time I've posted about this so if your reading this again, bare with me, I'm just venting...

Me: 32M, happily married and with my wife 33F, now 10 years. Was opening up to a friend today, someone whom I've already came out to and it's got me feeling down.

I've denied and stigmatized myself for years, despite my past MM encounters, I've always maintained that I wasn't bisexual, just passing the time till the right girl came around. I've never hid my past from my wife and she's always been accepting of it. I've not been with anyone else in 16 years or so.

About a year ago, my wife and I discussed threesomes and I admitted I'd be okay with an MFM but it might be easier for me if we found a bisexual man so I didn't feel left out. She was open to the idea and after some time passed, I was able to finally admit to myself and my wife, I was bisexual.

Fast forwarding to now, we've not had any threesome encounters and I'm beginning to wonder if this will ever happen. Since accepting myself, I feel I've had an awakening but now, I'm beginning to become inpatient and wonder if this is a side of myself id be better off suppressing again. I love my wife, fully, and would NEVER be unfaithful but I'm also not comfortable outright asking for a hall pass or pressuring her into a threesome either.

Once again, sorry for the long post. Just felt like I needed to get it out...