I am a 38(F) that knew she was bisexual when she was in highschool. I unfortunately came out to my parents and was told it was a phaze and living in a small town was teased. I had a girlfriend for a short time but broke it off when I met my husband. For years I oppressed my bisexual side, not out of fear of my husbands response but because it was 'the right thing to do'. Society told me that to be a good wife and mother I had to put away childish things and liking both genders was a childish phase. My husband knew from the start that I was bisexual, but through the years we have been together, I never acted on it and he never pressed the issue.

In the past year my husband and I have opened our marriage and have been exploring swinging. I decided to use this as a chance to reconnect with my bisexuality and my husband has been absolutely supportive. Over the last few months I have been on a few (awkward) first dates, had a few steamy (and awkward) first encounters, and have been enjoying (cheesy and awkward) flirting. Today I confessed to my husband that since reconnecting with my bisexuality...I feel whole.

I didn't know anything was missing nor did I feel incomplete in the past until this realization swept over me today. It has been an emotional release and profound realization to be at a point that I accept and feel complete.

It feels good to feel whole.