I'm bi and out to my gf, but she doesn't know how far to the gay end of the spectrum I really am. I told her around that time that I tend to jerk off to guys or MMF porn, and that didn't go well because she was concerned I'm just not into her at all. But that's not how I blew it.

Our sex life is on a hiatus due to medical problems, and and so of course we're getting ourselves off without penetration. I told her that sometimes I jack off in the bathroom to fall asleep, and now she asks every so often when the last time I jacked off was, and jokes she's going to catch me one of these days. Now I'm horny and can't jack off bc I'm afraid she'll catch me and make me show her what I'm turned on by (dicks. It's dicks. No women involved at all). What do I do?

Options:

1) tell her and deal with the repercussions.

2) just fap, and shut up and be happy you have a partner who didn't dump you when she found out you weren't Straight McMasculine, you overly anxious twat.

3)?

Tldr: gf would be offended I don't fap to women, so now I'm too worried to enjoy jacking off.