I'm beginning to understand my appeal to a rather thorough submission especially to men. I was concerned because I have never suffered any kind of sexual trauma or anything like that. I know some but not all people who have been sexually assaulted deal with it by desiring the acting out of extreme sexual activity, and some but not all people who like to get dominated and roughed up do so to deal with having been sexually assaulted.

I was afraid I'm just fucked up if I have nothing traumatic to drive me to get tied up and mercilessly treated. But I have begun to realize part of it is caused by my inhibitions and a desire to eradicate them, and a bigger part is I have not gotten nearly enough sex as I have wanted to get.