A follow-up to a now ancient post I made on here years ago about being on the bi to straight pipeline😅

So it’s been almost 6 years since I first realized I was bi back in late high school. I went through a bit of a cringe baby gay phase (don’t we all) where I got super into some TV ships and making gay art (not that any of that is bad, it’s definitely just a little much for who I am) and some TikTok gays, and being bisexual definitely felt like a defining part of my life. I went off to a very queer college and was excited to wear pride merch and introduce myself as bi to new friends.

I ended up having a huge, HUGE crush on a guy at my summer job after freshman year which made me question a lot. After having a crush on him, and looking back at the zero crushes I ever had on girls (as a kid and especially at my women’s college where EVERYONE is queer) it made me question that if I could feel the same way for a girl in a romantic sense, even if I knew I liked them sexually. I also ended up getting some repeated, unwanted attention from an upperclassman back at college that fall, which really solidified my decision to go back in to the closet, so to speak. In my head, if I wasn’t romantically interested in girls, why say I was bi and risk people getting the wrong idea? If a close friend ever asked me, I would still always tell them I was bisexual heteroromantic, but would also emphasize that I was still open to whatever and whoever ends up working out. In public/larger group settings though, I would just say nothing or let people assume I was straight. Going to SUCH a queer college, this honestly felt ridiculous to do, but I honestly did not feel super comfortable to be who I was.

Fast forward to me now, a college senior, and I finally feel comfortable saying that I am bi again. I came out to a few people at school who previously assumed I was straight recently. I just got tired of hiding that part of myself just because it felt inauthentic and it didn’t feel fair to me and everything I had been through accepting my sexuality. A large part of me felt like it was easier not being out because I didn’t want people to judge or assume they knew my bisexuality, but I decided that if people do decide to judge or assume, that’s on them, not me. Funnily enough, true to my word, I stayed open to anyone, and now there is a girl I absolutely adore who I just confessed my feelings for (which were reciprocated!) So, I guess if people see us around campus, they’ll definitely know I’m NOT straight haha. But yeah. All that to say, the journey is never linear, but it feels good to feel okay being out again, and especially being lucky enough to be with such a wonderful woman, I feel prouder than ever :)