I'm new to wlw relationship (I was straight before, had 3 guy exes and now I'm currently with the most handsome pretty woman I've ever known.) Dating for 3 months and counting(hopefully). She came from a very toxic long term relationship, got cheated on, abused etc. She's an avoidant and I'm a very anxious person, a big overthinker. For the first time in years, I'm actually feeling scared of the idea of losing someone dear to me (her). These past few days we've been having more arguments than usual, she keep being upset about something that I'm not aware of, when I ask her about why she's feeling the way she is, she would only answer me with "we're fine", "we're good", "we're okay", "I'm okay.", "Drop it.". I would feel anxious because she would be affectionate and then suddenly she'd just detach from me, when I'm with her and our friends, I feel like she's happier with them than she is with me. She doesn't like sorries or anything about apologizing. She always talk about leaving me, what if we aren't meant to be, that I deserve better, and other negative things. She doesn't like the idea of making up to your mistakes and etc. I don't know what to do, I'm so confused, upset and I'm now questioning my value. What if I was never enough to begin with? I know that she could leave me anytime she wants without being attached to me yet she tells me that she loves me, she write me songs, poems, sonnets, buy me just because things, just because flowers. I'm scared. I'm really really scared. I'm making efforts to understand her and everything, love her the way she want to be loved, doing everything to be better for her and for myself. I feel scared that she'd leave me when I'm here doing efforts to fix things even if it wasn't my fault, to assure her about everything, make her feel like she's loved and everything but it's really making me feel stressed and all. When I open up to her she'd tell me that it's better for her to leave me or it's better if I leave, that's she's bad for me. I don't know what else to do 🥹🥹