Married guy here with conflicted sexual desires. 34yo guy been married to my wife for 11 happy years. We have a pretty sex life and im not complaining but we recently were talking with a bisexual male/fenale couple and man is my mind racing.

My wife is a straight woman and im definitely attracted to her, but before i was married i had a few discreet hookups with guys. I told my wife upfront when we first started dating because i like to be honest, but she was not pleased with it.

Im very masculine but something about being a bottom for a man just makes me so horny. Ive been battling urges to get back on grindr and chat with guys and maybe even have a hookuo, but cant get over the guilt of even thinking about it. I feel like ive already dishonored her just by having these thoughts. Has anyone else been in this predicament?

How do i deal with these urges? Am i a bad person for thinking this way while married? I cant talk to my friends or family about this, so here i am asking strangers on the internet 😟.