Im still not out, but in my head I’ve considered myself gay since I was 15 (now 21). Only ever been with guys. I don’t think I’d be happy with a women and when I was younger that would bring me to tears lol.

But I still have fantasies or watch straight porn with a certain type of women ever now and then that can get intense, which will make me question myself to the point where I’m going crazy and just tell myself it’s just a fetish or something.

I feel like I shouldn’t be having these thought if im gay, but at the same time I feel like I don’t fit in/ feel comfortable in Bisexual spaces like this one kinda like I’m on the outside looking in, and when I see Heterosexuality displayed here I feel almost resentful?

Idk if this is the right place to ask so sorry, also if I need to clarify something just ask.