Hello! I'm M30. I feel like only now I’m completely accepting my bisexuality, though l... felt l'm not hetero since 13 maybe.

I wanted to be a masculine man but I always were a bit different to males around me, and I did feel this difference. I was ashamed of my sexuality, to do bottoming etc like it's humiliating me and make less manly and kinda all of the stereotypes around are about that.

But now I grew up, literally I look more mature, and it seems I found that I can be a masculine and can enjoy all the ways of my sexuality, though I haven’t done bottoming with a man for years.

I suddenly found that being a bit playful, idk, fruity is also important for me, like I don't want to be this completely "serious" grown-up man, that culture here in Eastern Europe forced me to be. Idk how to explain it. Maybe anyone also has this experience and feeling exploring their sexuality and gender?