I am a bi 42M. I strongly prefer men for relationships, but I constantly fantasize about having sex with women (I do like men sexually too though but I don't get as "excited" downstairs when thinking about them).

I don't know if maybe because of the biphobia I have experienced from women if that is why it is harder for me to get excited about wanting a romantic relationship with them. I find it more scary to date women and I am more averse to commitment with them. I have talked about this to my therapist and she said I shouldn't compare every woman to my ex gf because there are billions of women out there. I think, for me, being with a woman would just be about sex, but it would be hard for me to find a woman that would be cool with a fling and I don't know if I could do it again. I had a fwb situation with a woman about 13 years ago and I still think about her to this day and realize my feelings might have been deeper than I thought even though she showed that she didn't give a shit about me as a person. I don't want to experience that pain again.

I am actually becoming less interested in relationships in general as I am getting older. It's hard to find reasons to put up with a lot of bs at my age. however, I feel that for a relationship, being with men would be easier for me and work out better but I find it difficult to find men interested in anything other than sex.

What do I do? What is wrong with me?