Sorry this is also a bit of a vent post asking for help on what i am and if anyone else has/had issues with themselves like i do. So basically i think im bi im not totally sure, i dont know if im actually romantically attracted to anyone? like realistically at all? like i like to think about having a fairytale romance and the perfect partner but theyre never really a solid image i can never make up a perfect partner in my head, so i use animated characters i like instead which sounds cringe and weird i know. but like I genuinely dont know i feel safer with women and im horrified of men but i think theyre both attractive, but like its not really only that but i cant genuinely imagine myself in a real life relationship at all. Like i cringe in disgust thinking about being intimate and people not looking like barbie dolls and just being smooth LOL, which sounds stupid but like i genuinely cant imagine people having parts because i get like so uncomfortable and upset about it. it's like a genuine problem, im also disgusted by talking intimately with another person even though i crave it but when it's not in a corny movie like im thinking about it with me in my own head i get so uncomfortable and feel so weird about it. Im extremely introverted but i love having one or two close friends who i can interact with, and i enjoy like some physical stuff except for anything remotely sexual even kissing on the mouth. I question alot about myself and its mostly that and my gender identity but thats for another day haha, but like another problem is that ill get into these moods where i dont care at all and will "act out" and do those things online and then feel disgusted no matter the gender of the person. Like i objectively find everyone attractive regardless of gender and sometimes crave a close relationship but not one like that, and im not sure if its just me, like im not totally unsexual at all because i do things like that regardless of how i feel and just suck it up even though it makes me wildly uncomfortable. im sorry this got long and i hope it made even a semblance of sense, if anyone has any idea of what im saying i appreciate any words and help. im sorry if this was the wrong subreddit to post this too but i didnt know where else to ask considering im pretty positive im bi i just dont understand how i feel, lol but anyways sorry! thank you