So, I (M or NB-Amab depending on the mood) think I'm in theory attracted mostly to women, but also a rather slim percentage of men. I'm put off by male hairyness and sharp facial features and not attracted to male body fat distribution, I guess? Neither to "masculine" behaviour. If I watch p**n, I actually prefer variants without any men.

Earlier this year, I crashed out of my first and only relationship (with a woman). And recently, I've exclusively been having fantasies about having a boyfriend and more vividly than ever before (before, I've had both at different times but mostly with a woman). But if I look at "real men", I tend to be not attracted at all.

How does this make any sense?

Not that it matters anyway because I'm incompetent at meeting people, let alone dating, regardless, but I just want to understand.