Hey everybody, so I have realized recently (5 months ago) that I am bisexual. I'm a guy.

However, I don't really feel that attracted to men's faces, I like pps and buttocks and all that other stuff, but for some reason, a manly face is a turn off for me. If I were to put my attraction to men in words, it would be that I am attracted to guys when I don't think of them as men, and I have always ONLY been able to be attracted to men in this way.

When I was like 5-6 years old, I went to a games store with my dad, I was looking at PS2 games and, in passing, saw a cd case for final fantasy 12. I immediately had a crush on a girl on the back of the cover. I bought the game hoping to find this girl in the game, but when I played it I couldn't find her anywhere. This was at such a young age, that that type of woman became my type in girls. I gave up on playing the game half-way through. Years later, I realized that, what I saw that day wasn't a woman, it was Vaan (the main character who was a boy!). He was right there from the first scene of the game and I didn't even notice his similarity to my crush, because he was a boy, so I didn't even think of him in that way and I wasn't attracted to him. I also might not have noticed it because of the stark contrast between the amazing covert art and the actual shitty graphics of the game.

I only liked Vaan when I thought he was a girl, and I only like men when I think they are not men, or at least I can't see their manliness in anyway. But I am super attracted to pps, muscles, and them not having boobs. Like my brain knows they are men, but doesn't care, but when it starts seeing other men in my life in them, then it gets turned off.

Is this what bisexuality is? I'm so confused. It just feels like I have a new kink and not a different sexuality.