I don't know what kind of a sexual freak I am (30M).

History: I've been in a long relationship with a woman and also experimented to 10 guys.

I find myself only checking out women on the street, beach, clubs, never guys (except maybe their bulges or stuff like that). I like women (body, lips, face), I like ass and boobs, I like vaginas, I like licking or penetrating a vagina. With guys I lose erection most of the time when they blow me and almost systematically if I want to penetrate them. I do however get hard when I have a dick in my hand or mouth and also tried anal a few times (only liked it once). I kissed a few girls but never a guy and the thought of doing it does not seem sexy to me at all. Same hugging a guy, it would be weird. I have never flirted with a guy but did it quite a lot with girls. BUT when using porn to masturbate I am more turned on by close-ups of certain types of dicks (above average size, uncut, big full balls) than straight porn. So I'm a mess and on the brink of depression because of this... Am I gay? Am I some kind of bi? I don't fucking know. I know labels don't count but I am really confused...