I mean I've only dated one person. And that person was my best friend (yeah yeah I know stop judging me..). She was a girl. When it was this typical September-november love spree, when everyone had crushes and boyfriends etc.. I would always lie about having a boy crush. Two reasons, I didn't want to stand out and I wasn't really interested in having a boyfriend or liking a guy. When I was in 5th - 7th grade, I started questioning myself. Do I like girls also or do I just watch too much anime. I started having interest into yuri anime. Every time I'd watch something like that, I would imagine myself having a girl, rather than a guy, i kinda found comfort in it, like wow i can relate kinda. I was never interested in guys. Not once have I fell for a guy.. every guy I would talk to, I'd view in a platonic way. I hated the idea of people shipping me with them. Well certainly this doesn't mean anything yet. I can imagine myself with a guy I guess. But the idea of me doing it with a guy or just him kissing me just feels.. I don't know. I can be with a guy if I find someone respectful who would love me the way I love him then yeah. Kissing him, I guess sure, but doing anything sexual or making out like the tounge and everything, ehh... I dont know about that. You see when women- for a long time I though it was because I watched too many fruity anime/shows that I get these weird thoughts but in reality I just realized my love for girls. When I was a child, I always played a boy so I can have a girlfriend.. yeah. End of story, declared lesbian.. don't consider myself one. I never thought in a million years that my first love would actually be a girl. I'm an introvert and guys in my area are dicks, I hardly found any that would talk to me but I did find some. Never had a situationship or anything with them, I never actually thought of having one in the first place. So now I'm kinda confused myself. But I dont need a label anyways.. I just simply love, it's just people, many bisexual people have been shaming me when I told them my situation. I just simply think I haven't find the right guy yet... I guess help me 😭