I (18f) am pretty sure I'm not straight. I like some guys but I also like girls.

But my family would not like it, especially my father. He's quite conservative and even if he's not rlly homophobic, he thinks gays shouldn't adopt because he thinks it's bad for the kids, and ik he wouldn't want me to be "abnormal". He acknowledges the gays but is against the pride for example.

He would definitely be disappointed if he finds out and I'd hate to disappoint him. He loves me and is prouf of me and I rlly don't want him to see me otherwise.

I hate that I can be attracted to girls. I wish I never fall in love with a girl so I can keep it secret for ever. I hope I'll fall in love and make my life with a guy so I won't be a disappointment. And at the same time, if nothing of this mattered, if society and people around me were totally chill about whatever I chose, I'd prefer to date a girl. It seems so sweet, so nice.

I hate being like that