I’m a woman and I’ve been out as bi for a few years now. These past few years I’ve leaned more towards women, which is essentially why I even came out in the first place. I have yet to date a woman but I’ve had crushes here and there and they almost always turn out to be intense but then again I’m not sure they really are intense or just how straight people feel or anyone else for that matter. Anywho, I’m conventionally attractive and people expect me to be straight. It bothers people so much to find out that I’m not. They immediately think I’ve been hurt by men or traumatized or something happened in my childhood when none of those are the case. The things people say start to get to me sometimes. I feel like I forced myself to go on so many dates with men that never ended up working out. The guys I’ve talked to see me and expect a certain kind of woman and I’m not that so it fizzles out quick. I’m not taken seriously about my sexuality until it’s “proven” that I’m into women and then people distance themselves because they can’t figure me out and maybe that makes some of them uncomfortable (?). I’m just trying really hard to love myself right now. If I talk about feeling lonely people tell me to just date a guy since I’m bi but they don’t understand that it doesn’t just work that way. Dating men and women has been such a fail for me. I have my life in order financially and physically but relationships have always been a challenge. I know i shouldn’t be saying this, but it would be easier if I was just straight. Or had more of a lean towards men. Crazy thing is that men tend to like me a lot but I can’t make myself feel the same for them. I know the attraction for men is still there but it’s few and far between.