So I (20m) drove home with my car and my sister (23) and we talked about my problems in life. Because I'm not happy with my life right now. I didn't really wanted to talk to her about it but we kinda did. Then I said that I'm maybe not honest with myself and she asked me where I'm not honest with myself. I kinda struggled with an answer and then I said that I'm not sure if I'm honest about my sexuality and I told her that I'm maybe bi. She asked me why I think that and if there was any situation in that I started to realize and I couldn't really answer cause I don't know. Then she asked me if I'm in love with my male best friend and I had a feeling that she thought that I'm lying to her about not being in love with him cause she asked a second time after that. After that she asked if I'm in love with anyone and I told her no. (I'm not really in love with anyone but I kinda like a female friend of mine). She told me I should try it out and so on to be sure but I don't really feel comfortable with that right now. After that we talked about other stuff and I'm kinda scared she tells anyone because I think I'm the one who's supposed to decide who will learn about it how they will learn about that.

I met with my male best friend yesterday and I kind of wanted to tell him I'm bi. (I also wanted him to know that I don't feel attracted to him in any way). But I didn't do it because I was to scared. I'm kind of scared of everything changing in my life but I kind of still want change in my life. It's pretty confusing.

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