So I had sex for the first time and off course with a woman and it was fun really good even not going to lie.

But I also need to accept that I have fantasized about dick a lot equally as much as I fantasize about a woman meaning I am bisexual to some degree and am single but I just don't know where to start to experience the other side like if I could make it perfect I wish girls would just have dicks or maybe a femboy, hair is big turn off for me and like I just want somebody to empty his load inside of me and keep going till am cumming I don't even know why I think so detailed about it.

But suffering from a little perfectionism I wouldn't even be able to ask a guy to have sex if I couldn't dress up as a femboy perfectly, it's like am not exactly gay I just want to experience the other side of the spectrum badly like I just want to turn into a girl, am just really confused about it all I need to hear some advice or if other people have had this feeling.