I need to warn anyone before going any further this is truly just a random little rambling about my dildo experience if your bored or something and want a little read then by all means carry on, however if your expecting something deep or important to transpire in the below words of a boy at 4:00 am… I’m afraid you’ve taken a wrong step. By all means tho continue if you just want a little nonsense read about the thoughts in my head. I’m also not the best at punctuating stuff like, (, . …) so I will over use punctuation way, way too much. So if that kinda stuff hurts your head to see turn away. This is gross, I warn you travel further at your own risk.

wasn’t sure what to post this to, so I just chose discussion figured it was the most broad of categories… I’m kinda confused really about a lot of stuff right now and don’t really have anyone to talk to about it, I’m a guy, man, boy. whatever you wish I don’t see myself as a woman in a man’s body I want to make that clear… I just really like putting stuff up my ass I really like stuffing my tight hole and just opening it up it feels so damn good… I’ve dated two women in my life after the first one left me I got my first toys back when I was 22 from Adam and Eve now I’m 25 single again and bought 2 more dildos from Bad dragon, got a Small and a medium same with the butt plugs… and I must say, Bad dragon is a AMAZING company absolutely the best, expensive as hell lot of money, and there “cum” lube tho fantastic way better then the stuff Adam and Eve has, doesn’t really resemble cum apart from its sticky it’s very sticky, and well worth it… I got the medium size thinking it be fine and to be fair I can get half of it up my butt, but I ordered a small it hasn’t come yet I think I should practice more with that, that should help a bit more, funny enough I got a medium size butt plug thinking I could use that to open up my ass and get it ready for the dildo, the plug however dose not fit at all and the dildo went up there first try it was only the head and a-bit down the shaft on the first day but it was shockingly easy, after the head popped in. a lot part do to how hungry I was for it to just get up there and that amazing lubricant a little truly goes along way, I do find that it drys out pretty fast tho, because I was applying it then washing off my hands, so I could touch other things without getting everything sticky. and in the time it took to wash off my hands the lubricant had kinda already dried up… you really need to apply it then sit on it and ride it for a bit before washing off your hands that helps a lot. It’s why I ordered a small butt plug with the new small dildo hopefully that one will actually fit and get me ready for the medium one, part of me thinks if I had help like someone else pushing it up I could force it in. But that would probably just hurt me and cause some kinda injury at this point. Ummm I used to watch porn of women but recently today actually I turned that off and just started thinking about guys sucking a dick being called a good boy having his cum shoot into my ass down my throat hot and sticky, I’d clean it off after… maybe I’d cum at the same time as him, be laying on my back and he’d cum in my ass and tat make me cum at the same time… Iv never had sex it’s interesting being 25 never had sex, but honestly it really doesn’t bother me, I feel like sex is the most spectacular thing you can do with someone and I feel like it’s important to not just “have sex” but to find someone who you truly care about and to build up to that moment so it really matters because it should it should really matter, it’s not like your. Going for a walk. Or eating food. Sex is the most intimate act you can do with someone, perhaps I’ll think differently after my first time… but I’m perfectly fine for now. the women I dated were both very beautiful but also long distance only so we never did anything like that… I’m just rambling I’ll get to the point.

Thank you for getting this far if you want to skip the first paragraph that’s cool it’s literally just nonsense. I really want a dick in my ass I have one you know a pretty good one I’m 5’8 and my fully erected junk gets all the way to my belly button, 2 or 3 fingers wide depending on your hands I have small hands. but it also gets hot and it’s just so much more different then a dildo I just really want to know what it’s like that’s all, Iv put my fingers up my ass to it feels so cool up there, I’d love to put my dick up there ass to. and that’s strange really because dildos don’t make me horny they don’t get me hard I like them but normally I use it clean it, then jack off… I think it’s because when I’m using the dildo it takes a lot of focus and determination, the first time I put that bad dragon up my ass my dick SHOT UP it was crazy like instantly hard, but besides that one experience normally I don’t get hard using a dildo. Use it take it out, cum… after I cum I want to put it back in again… look I’m sorry… I like boobs to a lot I’m not gay I don’t see myself as a woman… I just have this deep urge to suck a dick sometimes to like one to just put it in my mouth and look up at him… it’s very confusing… I like women to I do I just don’t know

I don’t really fully understand the point of this post, it will probably get taken down just a bunch of random nonsense that’s in my head, and that’s alright I just needed to get it out… it feels better getting it out… even if it gets flagged by a bot and taken down instantly… I don’t expect anyone to actually read this… it was really manly just for me