I’ve been with my boyfriend now for about 6 to 8 months. I knew when we got together that he was bisexual and that he would want to experience threesomes with me and another guy or me and another female trust him. When we first got together, he pleasured me as a woman in the way I like to be pleasured and seem to be obsessed with and all about my body as we slowly integrated me pegging him. I feel like he is more excited about me, penetrating him, and he is penetrating me. He is pretty much stopped, penetrating my woman parts, and doesn’t seem to be interested when I’m trying to masturbate although I’m right there with him when he’s trying to masturbate so that I can help him succeed. He has never shown affectionate to me outside of the bed no kissing no holding hands no slapping my booty. I do feel like he gets very excited when another male is gonna come over and have sex with us. We disagree on how to find a third partner. I need to be attracted to them. He thinks being attracted to them reaches my love and affection and loyalty towards him because he says he sees them just as toys, but I need to visually be attracted to someone before I can get that place so it has caused issues in the threes that we have experienced where I don’t want to participate, and he gets upset about that. He is not an easy person to talk to when it comes to things because he always says I’m worrying or trying to find problems. I do have my own personal baggage from my childhood and my past as we all do that may toss a wrench occasionally in our relationship, however I love him. I’ve been loyal to him and I can’t stop being obsessed with wondering why I feel like I’m not good enough to him because none of these other things are happening the way I feel they should be happening and I don’t even know how to bring this up to him because he will get mad. I did tell him one time that I think he’s gay and he said he’s not the discussion really didn’t know much further. What the heck do I do? I feel like I’m not enough, but I have such strong feelings for him and love him, but I just don’t feel like he feels the same. He keeps his phone away from me at all times, but always takes it with him when he leaves the room or my presence, and mine is right there where he can see it. He has access to it. He uses it. I don’t understand that either in denial do I already know the answers to this would even matter if I said anything to him because I don’t feel like losing me would be a loss to him…