(25M) will probably ramble quite a bit

Earlier this week, I was broken up with by my long time girlfriend. It was a tragic experience, but we agreed to be FWB and see if that helps anything. “Hell ya, I get to keep her but no strings attached?” Is what I thought.

Many, many questions, drinks and tears later… I had a mental breakdown in her arms about how I’m not angry at her, or really anyone….I’m just scared and don’t understand what I’m feeling etc.

I have been a closeted bisexual since I was 15. I tried talking to my mom, but she shut me down so hard, and kind of made me feel like I had something wrong with me.

Since coming out to my (ex?) girlfriend, I’ve felt so much weight lift off of my shoulders.

Less than 48 hrs after I finally accepted me for the person I’ve been since I was a teenager… i told my mom about how I feel and how she made me feel that day, and she said she always kinda knew because I was “a little bit fruity around certain boys”. That made me feel SO fucking good.

While at work today, I told my 2 best friends/Co-workers and they also accepted me and started making jokes about it (I needed it, and it made me very happy)

Long story short; I feel scared and confused about who I am. How much of my life was a lie? Why didn’t I tell anyone earlier? I have 14,000 questions and don’t know how to ask a single one of them. Can anyone help me understand what the hell is going on? Or at least point me in the right direction???