Ok so little backstory I an 26 about to be 27 and my "partner" is 22, we known eachother since he was 13 and I was 17, I always been attracted to guys i consider myself bii but lean more towards guys, anyways we known eachother for a long time but we never did anything around those ages we were just cool I would go over to his cuzins and he would be there, one time he randomly said he was bi and thay always stuck with me... Fast forward around 3 years ago, we would always keep contat and just kicket here and there until around 3 years ago, his cuzins moved away and we started kicking it tuff, like erryday almost, we did alot of drugs together, smoked alotta weed, did alot of nitrous, shrooms, drank, pills etc, I would try to drop hints thati was into him but I don't come off as liking guys so he would brush it off people would've never known, around the time we started hanging out we were doing nozz and I told em I was bi, he said he wasn't and he asked me why I would ask him and I said we'll u paint ur hair doff colors and u paint ur nails and u told me u were before, he always got girls, he had a girl before this maybe for 2 years but he's a dawg and fuckboy so they neve lasted , so around the time I told him is around the time he had just broke up with one of his exes, also around this time he had started to do perc30 pills, and he got me into them, I got addicted to them and he did too, so throughout these 3 years we wre always on drugs alldayerrday but we started maybe falling in love Maybe not, he stopped working and wod hustle for his pills and I was working but the pills started to take co trol of my life,I almost lost my job, drained my bank account , caused alot of family problems and u know, so throughout these ye a rs he went to rehab 3 times too and he would come out be sober a lil and then he would release, he relapsed first time with me but after the other times he was on his own, thought this whole time we were "together " but not you know. Like we would kiss and act like we were together. It was mostly when we were drugged out, alot of fights, alot of drama, alot of crying alot of laughter, but alot of memories made as well.... so now I got sober in April and have been sober since, ii came outta rehab and he was still on drugs, so I would help him hussle for his stuff and I always worked so yes I bought it when he needed cuz if u know how withdrawals are then yea he would talk me up, beg for the money. Act all lovey dovey and badisly use me, also through this whole time we are together he was still always teynna get at girls and he sober runs he would not talk to me as much and just throw me to the side but I was always there and still here, ok so now 2 weeks ago saturday we were hanging out and he was still on drugs but I dropped him off around 3 am and this whole ti.e before I was dropping him off he was on his phone texting and I was lil suspicious, so he dropped him off and waited, turns out he leaves in his grandpa's truck 10 min later and came back at 6 am before his grandpa woke up, I told.him I seen him and didn't wanna mess with hi. Anymore ans thay he broke my heart, he says he went to go help his mom cuz she broke down like lmfao ok liar but whatever stupid me I forgive him, so we were fighting a lil for thay and I tried to break it off with him bit he tells me he needs me and he loves me and woop woop and tells me to come over so we can talk it our and he can prove me to he helped his mom , so I go we act all lovey dovey and i tell him to let me give him top, I have gave him top before maybe like 5 or 6 times and he honestly loves it. First few times he told me stopped because he was moaning all crazy and said if I kept doing it he's gonna like it too much, but anyways he tells me no but thay he'll jack me off, I told him naa becuse I had just bought him medicine a d didn't want it to seem like it was a transaction, so whatever I wasn't mad. He wasn't, we kissed talked about our future and eeryrhing and I left, next day he started to withdraw off the perx and he goes to the hospital and detox, so now a week later he comes out the hospital and he's clean but he needs to go to rehab soon, so I tell him what does he want does he still wanna be with me ill be there for him and wait through rehab and he says idk. Like bruh after all this shit u tell me u say you don't know, like why lead me on for all this time and then break me off just cuz he's sober ? Just cuz he ain't gonna need me for money and I was always there for hi. When he was addicted and sober through his up and downs his highs and his lows.... so ok whatever I tell em that's koo but that we can't be friends i can't be friends with someone I'm in love with and I need time .... the. He tells me he wants to be with me but after rehab like ugh ok I'm tired of waiting, so we dont talk for a few days then this weekend just paassess. Friday we have such a good time I take to Korean bbw we drink a lil we do some nitrous and he's acting all lovey dovey again and I tell him if I can give him top, he says no , I ask em.if we can kiss and he says no, like bro why keep leading me on if u don't wanna do nothing with me. Whatever I tell him same thing idk if we should still talk but Saturday morning , yesterday he talks me up all day again so stupid me I go over,and fro. The time I pick him up he says he has to go home early that he can't be out late lime bro I seen hi. Sneak out and stay out as lkmong as he wants, errytime he wants to leave early is becuaee he is going to leave later in the night so I tell him that and he gets all mad and I tell him to jusg leave me alone never hit me up again becusee he already did that time me last week I kmow he's doing something with skmone else. I'm guessing it's a girl but yea I'm so tired of it I feel so heartbroke and feel like I'm never enuff and I feel lime he just uses me like bro I knkw whay I like and idk if he does like guys and girls or just girls or he is scared to like guys or maybe he jusglt likes using me, idk I just need some advice what should i do? Like last night I dropped him off and told em ok fine i took him home early enuff for his late night date lol like bro am I trippin and is he not doing nothing or is he ? And then I tell him to not hit me up anymore and to delete my number and leave me alone... so today he texts me and says "cute" and I tell him who? Obv not me... and he goes "oh sorry wrong number that was for my date, sent that on accident " I'm like lmfaooo okkk. Anyone got any advice on what I should do?