I love him! Don’t get me wrong I really do! BUT the sexual feelings I possess for women is like an aching sore muscle that I so badly want to relieve. When we first started dating he was so on board with me seeing other girls but now he’s strictly monogamous. Very understandable and I’d never cheat…yet I can’t get these thoughts out my head I just wish he really understood me. I really can’t do nothing about it. I don’t like being single and I can’t seem to develop a relationship with a female that’s beyond sex. With men I see more value in a traditional family future. Don’t hate me! Just need advice and guidance not hateful comments.