I met her on Hinge, we planned this meet up over the weekend. I wasn’t nervous until right now because in my mind, if a date doesn’t go well maybe I’ll make a friend instead, no pressure. But now I’ve tumbled into overthinking mode…

It feels dumb because I’ve had crushes on women before, but I never actually pursued anything with them (cuz I’m insecure and anxious about flirting with all genders). So I’m trying dating apps. But the imposter syndrome thoughts are flooding in — I’ve made being bi part of my personality for the last 5 ish years, was that a mistake? Ik you can be bi without ever being in a same sex relationship. But I’ve also always had a stronger and more immediate attraction to men….do I like women or just the idea of being with a woman? (part of this thought is sadly influenced by my mom’s ignorance, thinking that bisexuality doesn’t exist. She says young women go through a phase because dating women feels safer than dating men. Which is bullshit in general, but what if it’s true for me?)

Anyway…someone help me stop spiraling please so I can enjoy my date?