I remember being the teenager agonizing with the slow inevitably of realizing I was queer. So many nights were spent feeling a deep sense of shame for just existing. In those moments, I knew there was no world where I’d end up with a woman. It just couldn’t be. Even after gay marriage was legalized, it still felt unattainable or maybe even unimaginable. Being this way meant I should feel ashamed. I should hide it the best I can.

And now it’s been 10 years and I’m on top of the world. I’ve never been so in love. I’ve never been more sure. I can’t imagine a life where I didn’t embrace being a sapphic woman. It’s brought me such genuine joy. I am literally counting down the days until I can say ‘my wife’ and even the thought of it makes my heart soar. She is so indescribable. She’s my human. She’s been there for my best and worst moments. We’ve grown together and separately in all the right ways.

I just wanna tell lil me that it’s gonna be okay.

and also fuck everybody who pushes the ‘I support bi women and their boyfriends’ bullshit. Bi women absolutely can have boyfriends and husbands. They’re just as valid in their sexuality as bi women with girlfriends and wives. BUT WHEN YOU SEE THOSE WOMEN Y’ALL JUST ASSUME WE’RE LESBIANS. We’re not always. My relationship is bi4bi even lol.

TL;DR: the lil scared queer kid did good in life