Bit of backstory: I’m quite introverted, social battery drains quickly and also still exploring my sexuality. I’m quite nervous with dating as well.

I might be visiting a friend in another country soon and their lifestyle is very different to mine. They are more comfortable partying, doing hard party drugs and hooking up, it always ends up being a wild adventure. As in, they’ll meet people and nearly end up in group sex

We’re likely all going to go to a kink party or a queer party. The environment and plans of the day are making me extremely anxious. Im worried I won’t be social enough, feel like it’s intimidating and it feels a bit much to jump into.

I know I don’t have to do anything I’m not comfortable with and it’s usually a fun and welcoming environment. But something about drugs, hooking up and hyper sexual environments panics me.

(This is mostly specific to this situation not queer parties in general, I don’t mean to generalise in any way).

Am I freaking out over nothing?