So it’s been a rocky road for me the past few weeks. I was ready to call it quits for several reasons, but my wife not fully accepting who I am was a big one. Well, we’ve talked and “fought” and felt a lot of feelings. But last night, I told her I didn’t think it was going to work out long term. We talked about a lot of different things and how life would look for us. I told her I really needed to explore who I am as a person, because I just don’t know who I am anymore. That I respect her boundaries and being apart made the most sense.

I was telling her that I love her, and that none of our current problems were reasons I couldn’t stay with her. But that I needed to be able to explore myself without feeling guilty. That I’m not sure monogamy is something I’m cut out for. She asked if I were allowed to sleep with other men occasionally, would that be enough to stay. I thought and said, yes, if I’m given the green light to explore and not have you hate me for it, I can work through everything else.

She said, ok. As long as you tell me about it, and know that I’ll want a threesome at some point, I am ok with it.

I don’t even know how I’ll go about all of this, but I’m feeling so free and loved. I know we’ll have a lot more to discuss, but right now I feel like my world isn’t spinning and there’s a path forward. And even if I never sleep with another man, I know I’m loved for who I am. Which means so much more to me.

Hopefully this comes across in the manner I’m feeling. Which is excited and happy.