So don't want to go super into detail but recently got out of a pretty messy breakup with a guy (I'm straight or I was, it's all pretty confusing right now). Fell into a heavy depression but got out of it thanks to a really good friend of mine. (Also female). She was always there for me and comforted me whenever I needed her, she was the only light I had in a very dark time and I felt myself growing closer to her.

Long story short I don't know if my feelings for her are because she was just so caring during my time of need or because I actually like woman. It's been almost a year since the breakup and I have pretty much revovered from the depression. But I'm still unsure if my feelings for her are real and afraid to tell her because I don't want to ruin our friendship if they are real. I have been looking up lesbian stuff online to see if I like it and I do. I have also been catching myself looking at woman in bikinis on vacation and thinking wow they are hot. But I also overthink a LOT and have been thinking about stupid stuff like children. I always wanted kids but getting artificially inseminated with cells from someone thats not my partner feels weird.

So yeah sorry for the dump but looking for advice haha.

Tl;dr Recent breakup with a guy made me fall in love with the one that pulled me out of the depresion (female). Extremly confused right now and looking for advice.