I’ve been stuck on this for a while now and I’m not sure what to do about it. I crush on women. I want to date women. I want to hold the women I’m interested in, kiss them, spend time together etc., but usually I’m not interested in sex with them. Like I am on some rare occasions, but for the most part I want sex with men. I would have sex with a couple of my friends who are men now, but I don’t want to date them, I don’t want to kiss them, or cuddle, or do relationship things with them. I just want to get off with them and hang out.

It’s got me feeling defeated. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not upset that I like what I like with who I like, but how it plays out for me is hard. I feel like most of the women I’m interested in dating wouldn’t be into this sort of relationship dynamic; perhaps I am wrong though.

I’m finding myself lonely right now. For the first time in a long time I wish I had somebody to come home to. I need to get out and put some effort into dating.