I met up with a guy from grindr, I've never been the type of person to just have flings, but honestly that's all I want with guys. I went to his house he knew this was my first experience so he didn't force me to do anything. Before I get into this I have been interested in bottoming for a guy since around 14 or 15 and I'm now 41 and finally gave in to the urges.

I've always been so turned on by the thought of sucking a dick that I'd get hard if it even entered my mind. So the first thing I did when I got there was pull his dick out, admire it and compliment it, then started sucking. I've sucked dildos before but nothing compares to the feeling of a real cock. Everything about it is how I imagined it. I was so turned on I didn't want to stop. I really wanted him to cum in my mouth, but I also wanted to feel him inside of me.

After about 10 minutes of sucking I told him I wanted him inside me, but to take it slow at first. He was about 7.5" and pretty thick, much bigger than my 6" dildo I use at home. He got a couple inches in and I told him to stop for a minute. After I felt ready for it I just pushed up against him to take as much as I could handle. Honestly he did all of the work, he fucked me in spooning position off the start, then doggy, then had me lay on my stomach until he finished inside of me. Such an amazing feeling.

I tried to cum but I couldn't, possibly due to nerves, but I was rock hard from the entire encounter. He was understanding. I didn't stay long afterwards which he was also OK with. After I got home I jerked off and came on myself, even got some on my face. I recorded myself cumming and sent the video to him which he really seemed to appreciate.

So, would I have sex with a guy again? Absolutely. Possibly not with the same guy, but I do know I want to give a bj to completion, so that'll be my next experience. I'm still not physically attracted to men, but their dicks make me extremely horny.

Sorry for the story I've had no one else to share this with and needed to get it off my chest.