So… I’ve been married to a man for almost 19 years, 2 kids. Lately, sex is okaay at best. Sometimes I pleasure myself bc it’s easier than having to finish both of us (I know how bad that sounds, I’m being honest here). What really gets me off on like 2 minutes or less is any girl on girl scene… most times I don’t get past the kissing scenes haha Anyways. This fantasy is becoming more of a real desire to truly explore my sexuality and I cannot shake this feeling. I don’t have experience with any women but I find them very attractive and sexy. And I really think as a gender we truly are extremely beautiful and am appreciative of the way we were created with so many lovely assets and especially those with feminine and beautifully nurturing qualities. (I could really just go on and on) 😅 My husband is my first real love and we got together young. I can’t help thinking that I would have identified as bisexual if given the chance/ time to know myself before marriage. He is open to letting me exploring this desire, but how the heck do I even do to something like that? I really want to be genuine and find a friend. I’m not a person who can just have sex with a stranger. And I can’t ask someone to be my “test subject “! I’m I just being crazy selfish ?