I have been out since I was 14 - I am a 28f - family is all aware, I am very outspoken about my bi-ness, I've helped many friends come out, I've connected people to other LGBT folks, I went on dates and been sexual with women and other queer folks. But due to my long term dating only with men, many of those relationships being abusive, family, hyper religious anti-LGBT schooling, I've found myself in bad cycles of low self worth. But no longer! I have done a lot of work in these last 3 years while also being single, in therapy, on good medication, living solo, and have a strong support system (mostly other BIPOC queer folks- I am extremely lucky!). I am finally feeling good about dating again and wanting to focus on queer dating... but my internalized homophobia makes me panic after a few dates or I when I start to have a big attraction to them. I have racing thoughts of "what ifs" from society, "what if we experience violence?!" to my family. They know and accept (not love) my sexuality. They are pretty religious- I am like the very beloved black sheep of the family for many reasons and I am also the only non-straight family member. So I have fear for someone I am dating to meet them (my family is nice, but I struggle with them with just normal life stuff, non-lgbt related. My stomach turns just thinking of it..). Idk I have... kind of always want to only date woman or queer or nonbionary folks but think my upbringing has really pushed that down. I am too scared to even try being poly relationship because of my fears... I dont want to cut my family out- as they arent verbally saying anything and try to be supportive.

Long short story, I know I am Bi and want to embrace my queerness and want to really try dating again but have been, for years, expering intense fear that stops me in my tracks. I am in therapy, but any advice? Especially if you have felt or delt with this...