I'm bisexual and actually have a preference for women, but I also suffer from a lot of stress and anxiety problems and I am fed up of having to put all the effort in and be the dominant one as the man in the relationship

I have a desire to just be looked after and treated and be submissive rather than having to be the one doing everything. I struggle with sex drive and erections and it just sounds nice to be treated to dinner or whatever for the night and then be picked up and put into position to get fucked without worrying about what I'm going to do and keeping a boner.

Am I just really strange for being like this? I just want to be the one getting used as a toy and treated for once. But I am more attracted to the female form and femininity and I am much more partial to checking out an attractive lady. So it's really confusing. I guess I mainly just need to work on my anxiety issues so I know what i really want.

Another question would be how I deal with wanting to spend my life with a woman and have a normal sexual relationship but also dealing with the occasional strong desire to get fucked by a big strong man and suck some dick. I doubt that generally goes over well, so I don't know what to do about that. Being bi is really difficult.