I'm curious about exploring other elements of the body and experimenting with people of different aesthetics and my own aethetic around people. As well as experimenting with roles I'm not as use to such as bottoming.

The confusing part is I won't trust random people with that and without some deeper, not just friendly connection. Though if I had that connection again, I'd likely just want a relationship.

I like the idea of being someone's man but sometimes I like the idea of being someone's cute boy, or even a feminine boy.

It's almost like my prefferences leave no room for experimentation before a relationship. I'm also not fully comfortable with open relationships or polyamory. I mean, if presented with an opportunity, I may try it out. Though won't directly seek it.

Then FWB could work, though I'd cut ties with that person competely if I get into a relationship with someone else. Also, I worry the fact of having been in an FWB would lead to either judgement or not being honest.