So… there is this trans girl (MtF25) that I (NB21) am dating, or… planning to.

We matched on a dating app back in February. We clicked immediately. It was almost unreal. We both had the exact same vibe and energy of being shy, kind and caring, but also deep down hella kinky and freaky. It was like finding a twin. We texted a lot, even started calling each other cutesy nicknames etc. but she also told me she had bad anxiety issues, which I did my best to accommodate. But before we went on an actual date, she blocked me.

I was devastated. In all long months (January to May) that I’ve been on dating apps, she was the one. The only person that I could unequivocally say ‘I want them as my partner’. No one else even came close.

And then in May we matched again on a different dating app. She explained and apologised and assured me she’s way better after getting some much needed therapy. And oh boy we went so back at it.

We text often unless her busy uni work schedule keeps her busy, which I do not mind. And the energy is still here, we’re so similar, we think so alike, we have the same strengths, the same weaknesses, the same sexual and emotional energy. It’s indescribable. We call each other pet names and flirt all the time and talk what we will do during sex (we’re very open and direct about that). But the universe decided to bite us in the ass.

Before we could go on a date, I got bad tonsillitis and was basically home-stuck for two weeks. She was nothing short of amazing, always asking how I was each morning, wishing me to get better, always telling me not to worry about it and she was always willing to reschedule when my illness kept going. It just made me like (um idk if I can use the other L-word already 😅) her so much more.

When I finally recovered we set a date for past Monday. But then Monday morning she told me she woke up with a fever, probably caught flu at work. So the roles were reversed. I reassured her we will reschedule and I’ll wait until the end of the world for her to get better if I have to, and asked each day how she was doing.

Today she recovered and we set the hopefully this time final date for Monday. And I cannot imagine that in person she will be anything else but the same wholesome amazing caring cute and kinky person I’ve come to know, even if only so far online. Each time I pushed compliments and admitted my feelings bit stronger she reciprocated, and… I even had the idea to ask her to be my girlfriend after the first date, but, idk, is it too soon?