Background...I'm a 39 year old male and I've always been "straight" but in the last few years I have really started to check out guys and watch gay porn. It all started when I got my Prince Albert pierced, looking at all the pictures of those that had it done, and went from there. I started thinking about what it'd be like to give a hand job, to suck, and then just live with and be married to a guy versus a woman. These thoughts evolved, and won't go away.

Heres my dilemma. I'm married with a family. My wife and I do not have a sex life, because what turns me on doesn't turn her on - I want to introduce light bondage, and I have a hair fetish, so I want her to shave her head, etc....Recently I lost my job and I feel like I'm at a turning point in my life. I want to try new things.

Can I come out and not completely ruin my marriage? Maybe I can suggest a 3 some with another guy? Maybe we can watch gay porn together? She can get a strap on? What I don't want to do is just go out and meet a guy.